Scarring
Scars are something I detest greatly on my body. Fortunately, I was not scarred as a child by my parents' beatings. Although I was a stubborn child growing up, my siblings and I were frequently locked inside the house to prevent us from mingling with other children.
The restrictions never prevented me from sneaking out every now and then to play with other kids. I was never caught, which I thought was an amazing thing as a child. It no longer sounds as amazing to me as it once did.
I remember almost every detail about my childhood, and that period of my life was extremely important to me, including the scars I received while rebelling.
As a result of my sensitive skin, even minor injuries leave a scar on my body. Scars do not pique my interest, nor do they bore me. It makes me despise the sight of it more. I despise seeing any blemish, scar, mole, or anything unnatural on my skin, which is one of the main reasons I can not get a tattoo on my body.
Last month, I fell from a low platform and sustained another injury. I have about four different scars on my knee that refuse to fade or shrink in size despite the fact that I have applied various ointments and balms to them. I was devastated to have sustained another injury there.
The injury extended from my kneecap to my thigh and was very visible. I am starting to get concerned about the scars from the injury.
I also avoid discussing any of my scars with anyone because they will either undermine my hatred for the scar or try to make me fall in love with it. If you ask me, that is so unnecessary. For me, it is more than just a scar. It is like a dent that I will probably have to live with the rest of my life.
Scarring bothers me much more than people realize. As an adult, I believe I should not have any more scars because those I received as a child should last a lifetime.
It is annoying that for someone who despises scarring so much, I have quite a few of them all over my body, with the majority on my knee. I will continue to try everything I can to keep my scars from outnumbering the ones I already have. But, in the meantime, I have suffered another injury around my kneecap, and you know how that ends.
Grieve with me, you guys.😭
